looking through old documents to try and find my PW PI from like 5 years back. i think my computer must've crashed somewhere between j1 & j2... can't find crap. thank goodness for emails.

and that's where everything began. looking through my list of sent mails was... enlightening to say the least. remembered all the people, the good times, the horrible times... mostly just feeling really bad how everything's turned out. its not a great feeling to have. I'm not sure i would have made things any better even if I could go back and do it all over again. I'm not even sure if i want to go back and do it all over again.

Right now? I'm just glad the pain's gone.